I have emerged from Manifesting a Meaningful life. It was an incredible week. I could not even imagine the experience that I had. 6 days of deep and intense conversations peeling away at the layers to come to know who I am today, in this moment. Realizing that who I am today may not be who I am tomorrow, or net week, or next month, or next year. Powerful. Freeing. It was exhausting. My body is still tired and at the same time I feel so energized.
I saw MYSELF for the first time on Saturday, the last day of the program. It happened in an instant, while brushing my teeth, I looked in the mirror… and did not see the person I thought I was, I saw who I AM. That part of me that others have seen glimpses of, that I could not. I am aligned and connected. I feel mySelf streaming through my body like I never have before, and it, everything is so easy.
Angst comes from when I step back over to the left side of the line, when I drop into culturally conditioned self, external referencing, step back into the process of nested family systems. When I don’t see them as systems, as processes. Choice is easy when I am living on the right side of the line when I look UP and remember who I AM and choose in that moment what feels right for me.
I am creating my life every moment, with every breathe. I now understand why this journey takes this long. I understand the angst I had to experience of wrestling with who I thought I was to free who I AM. The time I had to give mySelf to let go of the stories, the myths, in order to understand they were just stories and myths. To know that I AM the Godforce, a single note in the symphony… and until I pick up the instrument, and play it, I cannot be heard. So until this point my note was played erratically. Now I can be heard always. If, that is what I choose and I choose to be heard.
I was so blessed to have my friend Naomi staying with me through this journey. Every conversation was the catalyst for another insight, how brilliant am I for creating her on my holodeck. She has helped me to understand that I have the power to ‘Choose Easy’.
This journey has given me my life back. I am not naive to think that it’s over. I’ve only just begun. I know there will be time I am tempted to get caught up in the story and I also know all I have to do is remember who I AM. I am gidddy with excitement of not knowing where each day will take me and steadfast in my knowledge that it will end just where I need to be.
I bet you’re wondering so what is your signal? Who are You? Well, if you read these words and something moves, you have seen me, if we have a conversation and something moves you have heard me, when we are together you feel me, the words do not matter, it is the essence of who I am streaming through that is inescapable. The important thing is I KNOW WHO I AM in this moment.
Louise LeBrun says
Lisa…. I read your last paragraph and the goosebumps stand high all over the flesh of my physical being! These are the signs (for me) that herald the arrival of the presence of authentic being.
I know the courage it takes to travel this road. I am honored to travel it with you.
Wow! I’m just creating space today for me to read the blogs in the calmness that is in this moment. I smiled at and revel in your words.
“The important thing is I KNOW WHO I AM in this moment.”
Absolutely fantastic. Remembering who we are IS a vital force.
I’m glad you’re in my life.