I have emerged from Manifesting a Meaningful life. It was an incredible week. I could not even imagine the experience that I had. 6 days of deep and intense conversations peeling away at the layers to come to know who I am today, in this moment. Realizing that who I am today may not be who I am tomorrow, or net week, or next month, or next year. Powerful. Freeing. It was exhausting. My body is still tired and at the same time I feel so energized.
I saw MYSELF for the first time on Saturday, the last day of the program. It happened in an instant, while brushing my teeth, I looked in the mirror… and did not see the person I thought I was, I saw who I AM. That part of me that others have seen glimpses of, that I could not. I am aligned and connected. I feel mySelf streaming through my body like I never have before, and it, everything is so easy.
Angst comes from when I step back over to the left side of the line, when I drop into culturally conditioned self, external referencing, step back into the process of nested family systems. When I don’t see them as systems, as processes. Choice is easy when I am living on the right side of the line when I look UP and remember who I AM and choose in that moment what feels right for me.
I am creating my life every moment, with every breathe. I now understand why this journey takes this long. I understand the angst I had to experience of wrestling with who I thought I was to free who I AM. The time I had to give mySelf to let go of the stories, the myths, in order to understand they were just stories and myths. To know that I AM the Godforce, a single note in the symphony… and until I pick up the instrument, and play it, I cannot be heard. So until this point my note was played erratically. Now I can be heard always. If, that is what I choose and I choose to be heard.
I was so blessed to have my friend Naomi staying with me through this journey. Every conversation was the catalyst for another insight, how brilliant am I for creating her on my holodeck. She has helped me to understand that I have the power to ‘Choose Easy’.
This journey has given me my life back. I am not naive to think that it’s over. I’ve only just begun. I know there will be time I am tempted to get caught up in the story and I also know all I have to do is remember who I AM. I am gidddy with excitement of not knowing where each day will take me and steadfast in my knowledge that it will end just where I need to be.
I bet you’re wondering so what is your signal? Who are You? Well, if you read these words and something moves, you have seen me, if we have a conversation and something moves you have heard me, when we are together you feel me, the words do not matter, it is the essence of who I am streaming through that is inescapable. The important thing is I KNOW WHO I AM in this moment.