This past week-end I once again had the pleasure to be in the company of eight powerful women. Each one carving out a new way of being for others to see there is a different way to be in this world of ours. When my very dear friend Naomi arrived off the plane on Friday night I knew I was in for a wild ride. I could feel inside of me, something… something old, something deeply entrenched that wanted to…needed to move.
Once again I had to come face to face with who I AM. I had to go to that next layer of truth that resides deep within me. I had to come to a place where I could look at the deep rooted belief that I held as truth for so long and decide if it really was true.
My whole journey has been about trust, trusting mySelf, and those of you who have been on this journey with me have witnessed the many times I have had to face a belief I held as a truth and decide if it REALLY stood for the truth of who I AM. It is so easy for me to believe that something cannot be, to want to believe the stories that I tell myself, to run from the truth that is knocking at my door wanting me to take ownership of it. The question: Is it possible that I am the powerful being that I know mySelf to be? Is it possible that I truly can shape the world that I live in? When will I step up and own the majesty of who I AM. This is not about being better than anyone else, this is about claiming; I AM a powerful woman who is more than capable of shaping my world. This experience we call life is a metaphor to show mySelf who I am.
I had become adept at processing information, I had become skilled at calming the fire that stirs within me. I had not claimed the fire, I had not taken ownership of it, I was still working on controlling it, of not letting it get out of control. How long will it take me to own that it is the fire that feeds me, it is that fire that propels me forward, it is that fire that sources my creativity and that prepares the landscape for me to create.
So here I am declaring I CLAIM MY FIRE. I will no longer suppress it, instead I will breathe and let it fill me so that in that next breath I can then forge ahead in creating my world as I want it to be. The FIRE is who I AM. I AM FIRE CREATING THROUGH THE INTENSITY OF TRUTH.
I will not run from mySelf any more, it is getting much harder to do so. The chaos that I create in my life when I choose not to see who I AM grows in intensity, sends me in a tailspin. I have chosen a different way to live my life and I know it will not always be easy, is anyone’s life any easier the way they choose to live? What I know about my choice is that every moment counts, every breath is an opportunity for me to ask mySelf is my life a reflection of who I know mySelf to be? And if I say no I can change it right there and then. Can you do that?
Wonderful Blog my friend!
Your fire IS the magic! I feel the magic each time I am in your presence…now there is MORE! Is it possible for our conversations to get any better!? LOL
Every time I read someones blog there is always a gem in there somewhere. Today, it is what comes up for me when I read your words, “what I know about my choice is that every moment counts, every breath is an opportunity for me to ask mySelf is my life a reflection of who I know mySelf to be? If I say no I can change it right there and then.” I like that. I know that and I like that. Thanks for sharing your experience with yourSelf.