I started to write this morning and nothing happened. The keyboard would not work, so I closed down the application and was going to reboot when I thought let me see if I can write in another application, so I opened up my email, and low and behold no problem. I received an email from one of my cousins, normally our emails are short and sweet, today I found I had to lot to say, and all she did was ask me how I was doing. Then I received an email from a friend with pre-notification for a conference next year. Something I had dreamed about this morning. And I realized the metaphor for my not being able to write the first time. It was not time, things had to happen. I had to be in a different place. I AM now here. Fully present with my Self. I know it because I can close my eyes and type and not worry.
The connection or reconnection has been made. It’s easy for the organic being to get busy to fall into habituation, and, it’s also easy for me to reconnect. And there is genius in all of it. I present it all to myself, this is my universe right? I’m the one who presents all sorts of opportunities and I have a choice to make, do I take a breath and wait for the answer? Or do I just answer before connecting with my Self? There is nothing wrong with saying I need a minute, a day, a week to think about it so that I can do what’s right for me. Do what feels right for me. And I don’ t know what the consequence of my answer will be, what I do know is that once I answer with what is truly right, for me, it will open up new possibilities I may never have thought of. TRUST in My Self.
There is such a sense of calm that I get into when I breathe and am connected, like time stands still, that through my breath, I can, slow everything down. I get it now, be in the system yet not be part of the system, it is a choice that comes with a breath. So take a breath and choose.
Louise LeBrun says
As always, your thoughts trigger my own. I applaud the genius I am for having created you on my holodeck!
What caught my attention was your initial inability to write (keyboard did not work) and your extended email to your cousin. What came to mind for me was the distinction between the private and the public – with the blog entry one that is more ‘passive’ in nature, waiting to be found; and the email indicative of that which is much more revealing to those closest to us (often our greatest challenge). The difference of an expression of Self shared with others, and an expression of Self shared to others.
Thanks for this – it is one more piece in the great puzzle of my own life!
Aloha and a hug,
You are so right! It is the conversation that drives me, my blog is a conversation with myself. Good, and not enough. I had a wonderful lunch with a friend of mine and as we delved deeper into the conversation about ourselves I felt myself being energized, noticing more things about me and leaving her with lots of food for thought. I love my new life!