The Intensity of 2017 was the invitation to transition from caterpillar to butterfly.
The last few weeks…what am I saying, the last year has been intense. It has been a year of me sitting on the edge of a new emerging SELF. A year of me observing, fighting, relaxing into, denying, standing still and welcoming more. I have been terrified and elated, experienced great joy and extreme sadness. I have been hurt by my own undeclared truths and those of others, at times leapt into the unknown and others found myself stuck in the mud.
It has been a year of inviting mySELF to see habituated patterns that follow hidden ‘addictive thoughts’ that have been cloaked in fear. Fear of revealing what really sits under the surface inviting me to claim more of mySELF. Afraid of outcomes.
Our intellect will always default to loss not gain…
I associated loss with grief… until this moment. I now know hurt and loss work together to keep me from my grief. And as I chose to relax into the grief that rose to the surface I discovered that I do not have to lose anything. My intellect was telling me a story about what I ‘could’ lose and not letting me see all that I had to gain.
Hurt and loss… work together to keep us from experiencing grief
I consider the closing off of this year and the beginning of a new one I am ready. I am declaring to mySELF that I choose to breath, to trust what I know and to act in harmony with my intuition. Even if I have no idea where I am taking mySELF. This is the gift I am giving mySELF as 2017 comes to an end. The intensity is softening, the cocoon is cracking and it is time…
Until the next time,