I wrote this blog in October 2018 while I was in Hawaii co-facilitating a retreat entitled Re-Imagined Self. As I re-read it, 11 months later, I realized how much it impacted the trajectory of my life. All from a willingness to say out loud what was happening deep within. I hope you enjoy…
I’m sitting here on a veranda, on the island of Molokai, listening to the birds, seeing the sea and viewing a magnificent vista of hills and lush vegetation. And I’m thinking to mySELF…“This is my life!” How is this possible that I have manifested this experience again? This is now my third trip to Hawaii in a year and a half. I’m here co-facilitating a retreat with one of my dearest friends and colleague. And I’m in awe. So much abundance!
And then it happened.
As we were doing groceries I noticed the slightest emergence of scarcity move through me. I saw a jar of honey and instead of buying it I now recognize the thought pattern of it doesn’t have a price and so it’s probably expensive so I’ll make due with the sugar being provided. Not a big deal you may say, except I don’t use sugar at home anymore I use honey. So why would I deny mySELF that here in this beautiful space?
It hangs on an ever so thin thread of less than, that has been weaving it’s way through my unconscious, becoming visible in what I will call very ‘insignificant’ choices. Choices that I know if I continue to make, over time, will land me back in a familiar place. That is why I’m writing this blog…to call myself out. To be witnessed in my moment of slippage.
How often do we do this to ourself? We begin to manifest exactly what we want and then sabatoge the experience with deeply held beliefs around non self worth. I don’t think this is a rare occurrence. It takes effort and courage to call ourself out and continue to move into our greater SELF.
Change the story…
So I’m changing the story…I’m choosing to change the words I’m not aware of running in the background from “I can’t believe this is my life” to “WOW, this IS my LIFE!” Now what?
Sometimes that’s all it takes. No big gestures or plans or strategies. Just a simple declaration of a different choice. Do I know where this declaration will take me? No! What I do know is it just may shift me onto a different path into a land of the unknown rather than the path that loops me back to a familiar place that needs to exist no longer.
Consider what declaration or reframe of a choice are you willing to make today to create a new trajectory for yourSelf?
Until the next time!