The pressure was mounting, for about a minute yesterday evening…where is the money going to come from? There are things that have to be done, activities coming up and I have no work lined up. And I felt myself wanting to fall back into the habituated way of being, to worry. And I thought, I believe in this new life I have created for mySelf. I know that if I hold my intention something will manifest. Louise, your words from the G10 meeting resonate in my ears. ” When we get distracted it’s not that the manifesting ends it just changes to something else.” So I am holding my intention, trusting, knowing something is on it’s way that is just perfect for me. I have my proof people are starting to come onto my holodeck who are curious about WEL-Systems, willing to engage in conversations with me. I had a fabulous week meeting and talking with a few… knowing these conversations are the stepping stones leading me into my new life.
I know what I want, I trust mySelf, and I know that if I allow mySelf to become distracted that I will end up with something else. So as this new day dawns and I sit here looking outside my window at the magnificence of it all, I ask mySelf, “how does the godforce that I am choose to live today?” And my answer is, one breathe at a time and holding onto my intention, listening to my inner self, paying attention to what presents and choosing from that.
Old habituated ways of being do not go away quickly, they hang around waiting for that one moment to re-insert themselves. Lucky for me I know who I am and I now look up and choose from there. Not look down and choose from past experience. To move forward I look up, remember who I am and choose to move forward. So different from remembering past decisions/choices, remembering people’s reactions/expectations of me, reliving good decisions or not so good decisions, oh how my intellect was kept busy.
At the environment level I want/need to work, there is safety and security attached to brining money in. And I remember the discussion around the consciousness of currency. Thanks Noreen! I be re-reading that article. At the behaviour level normally I would start to worry about when is the next contract coming in, focus my attention on that. At the capability/strategy level I would begin to send emails out saying I’m available ready to take on anything I have a quota to fill, at the beliefs/values and attitudes level I might have believed that I was not contributing my share. And now, I am clear I no longer live that way. That way of being does not serve me, so I begin to lift my head… and now I am at the choice point, and guess what no agitation, no weird feeling within mySelf, because I know who I am and I know I am choosing differently. The old beliefs/values/attitudes are gone nothing rumbles inside of me.
I really do believe I am the one who creates the life that I want and there is no need for me to worry, or start running around like a chicken with my head cut off or to feel ‘bad’ about the role I play or the money that is or is not coming in. I am choosing to believe that what I need is in the midst of being manifested and will present itself to me very soon. I know who I am, therefore I choose to let that stream through me, every moment. No one else can be who I am or have the effect on the world that I will, and, I will no longer be distracted from that. I am here to awaken the truth, potential and power within those who know it’s there and are afraid. Afraid just like how I was, to be fully who I AM, resisting the incredible gift I have to offer for fear of what others might think or because my life might be different from others. And as the sun has moved and is now warming my face I am ready to live the life that I will create, it is a fantabulous life. How do I know? Because I say so.