I feel compelled to not be silent today. I just finished listening to President Obama’s inauguration speech where waves passed through me, for what reason I do not know. And I know I must write. I must say what has been inside me for the past few days. To tell you how my first flight went.
Two significant things happened to me this week. The first, I turned what in the past would have been a moment full of drama into a moment to claim who I am. And all I had to do was be me and not get caught up in the stories that my intellect wanted to create. When I said no to the story and yes to mySelf, in that moment, my life changed, and is still changing in ways I still do not know.
The second significant moment came when I stood firm with who I AM and suggested a new way of doing things with an associate. A shift in how we worked in the past. Actually it was a shift I want to make in how I present my portion of a workshop, and again there was no drama. Instead, there was a recognition that helping people to find out who they really are does not have to be in a specif context but can happen at any time, if I allow mySELF to be true to who I am.
So, I have taken my first flight. I let go for a moment, and guess what, I did not come crashing down to the ground, I rose above the clouds and soared, and learned that I AM THE ONE. Just as you are the one. And it has nothing to do with planning or preparation, for me those are strategies I use to hold on, to keep my eyes closed. I can no longer not be who I AM, the agitation in my body, the war within myself rises to quickly and is intense, and when I choose not to be mySelf the consequences hurt. I had raised my sword in defence of mySelf when there was no need for a sword and I hurt, physically, both on the crucible and warrior sides of my body, and when I decided to lay the sword down and be mySelf the pain has started to diminish.
My body gives me the signals I need to help me pay attention to the habituation of the old ways, I can no longer even doze off because the eyes of mySELF are always open now.
Naomi Irons says
Not a coincidence you are on my holodeck!! Louise is right- we could get into trouble together!! (smile). I look forward to many more incredible conversations to come and I know I am home on so many levels! Thanks for being you- the star burns even hotter now!
Louise LeBrun says
In this moment, I remember all those moments when what was so clear to me and yet, seemingly, invisible to far too many others, have all been worth it.
In this moment, I see you as the living expression of the ease and simplicity of it all: there is nothing for us to do but get out of our own way. Nothing to work at or struggle for. Nothing to analyze, strategize or manipulate. There is just letting go… of all that we have been taught to believe to be ‘truth’ and ‘fact’… and discover the power that comes when we stand in the simplicity of ‘just’ being our Self.
Wow! Thanks for this one, Lisa! I am so filled with hope.