I realize that I am living a very different life to most of the people around me. I know so much more today than I did a year ago it still astounds me. And I know the agitation it took in my body to get me to where I stand today.

I have started my Women Gathering group again and as usual the conversation was life changing. Information moved and everyone stood in a very different place. And I know, my story, that for some of the women the question of what else looms in their minds. And how can I put into words the experience that happens when you spend five days dedicated and immersed in these conversations. There is a paradigm shift that happens, all of a sudden you realize there is another world available to me, that there is another way of being available to me.

That the struggle with the external referencing does fall away and what is left is only the internal cues to guide you. I was reminded again in someone’s blog on the WGGG that it’s never about what it’s about, that the world that I live in is created by my internal state of being and that all that matters is what I am experiencing internally, that what I am ‘seeing’ and experiencing is what I hold in my internal landscape and in order to change my external world I need to change what is going on internally. That the distractions are just that, distractions, moving me away from discovering more of who I am. And if you’ve been reading my blog you know it’s not about who I am as much as it’s about what I am.

And it’s not about falling asleep it’s about allowing mySelf to get into the thickness and denseness of the trees which hinders my capability to see clearly what is ahead of me. Because I had buried so much so deep it took a while for me to understand that I didn’t have to clear my way through the denseness all I had to do was believe I could fly and take flight.

I understand the struggle, that each of us makes our way as we choose, and I want to say it doesn’t have to be hard, we make it hard, I made it hard, and I know that each journey is perfect.

How can I convey in words that when you start to listen to yourSelf your life moves and changes in a breath, that it is the agitation in the body that is the indicator that you are evolving and becoming more and all you have to do is relax into it and let it lead you.

I get that, no matter what I say, or how good I say it is where I live, from where you are standing until YOU are ready to spread your wings take flight all you can do is look up and marvel at me flying. Like you I was walking around with my eyes closed, and then someone showed me how to open them, like in the movie the Matrix, I had to choose whether to take the blue pill or the red pill, and yes, there are consequences to whatever you choose. You have been living those consequences, are you ready to live differently?