This is the audio version of this post.
It has been an interesting few days. So much swirling inside of me around choices, choosing, trust, shame and all stemming from the conversation inside mySelf around knowing I am ENOUGH.
I have been in some very intense conversations with mySelf out loud in the presence of another; realizing just how far I have come in knowing I am enough. My intellect wants to take me into all the spaces and places it knows around jealousy, righteous indignation and so on, and I find myself in a very different place. A place called indifference with a deep respect and caring for who I am, and the other person.
In the past, my perception of not being enough would have sent me into a tailspin with a plethora of questions and judgements around why I’m not enough. Instead, I find myself feeling so very grounded in the wholeness of my BEING. Realizing my perception of not enough for another does not take away from ALL that I am. Nor does it mean a change in what is. An awakening to a deep respect to we ALL get to choose what is meaningful to us in the moment.
I am giddy and excited! I have never stood in this place before; it’s all new these sensations I am engaging without content. Trust me my intellect wants to pull me into content, yet when I check in and take a breath the choice is so EASY; Breath; Follow the impulse; Stay in the tough conversation with mySElf; Tell myself the truth of my experience; Shape my world. I grok it doesn’t matter what other’s think, it doesn’t matter how others react, as long as I continue to choose what is meaningful to me.
The result; no drama, no going back and fourth in my intellect, no fight with mySelf; just a deep knowing of I AM ENOUGH!
Until the next time…