It has been a FANTABULOUS summer. So many shifts and changes; yes I know my life is constantly shifting and changing AND every shift is different. This post is my attempt to capture what I discovered about my capital S Self since June. I allowed myself to BE in every moment, every conversation. I spent time with family, friends and co-creators. I worked a little and played a lot.
It all began with Manifesting a Meaningful World (MMW), a conversation experience where I was in the great company of other women willing take ourselves where we needed to go. My experience was one of familiarity on a whole new level. This past year I have been experiencing sensations in my body that I have not had in over 20 years. Each time they presented I could place a moment in time, in my past where they occurred, yet, they were, and are, very different. For example I used to get close to or faint in my early 20’s. No explanation, no test could say what was wrong, so they put me on iron pills. That seemed to work as the fainting stopped.
Then earlier this year the familiar feeling came over me, only now I know I am a Quantum Biological Human™, I know the sensations that move inside of me are ME. So I allowed myself to take a breath. The first time it moved, the second time I passed out. And then I was done, I realized I had to choose to stay.
Back to my Decloaking experience in MMW, familiar and yet I stand in a very different place. I finally let go of the belief, the story, that I am dangerous. I can’t tell you what it feels like inside of me to no longer carry that weight. Yes I can, lighter, I feel lighter.
I then participated in a one day conversation with movement with Nancy Hanlon, Being the Sacred in the Secular ~ Your Way. A powerful experience where, for the first time EVER, my body moved to it’s own beat, a HUGE metaphor for me, that I was standing in a moment where I allowed mySELF to lead even though it did not match anyone else or the beat of the music.
The Decloaking and Living Authentically experience with men was superb, five days with two men who chose to step into a process of discovery that continues. For me it reaffirmed my intention to BE in and CREATE a world where men know they can “relax into new ways of being.” I am already LIVING in my new world.
Lastly came our Affiliate gathering, where I declared out loud, my path, my intention, to mySelf and as the wave of sensations moved inside of me I realized I had already taken the leap, let go of my past of who I believed myself to be, and am on the journey of discovering WHO I AM in THIS moment.
Hard to capture in words, it feels and continues to feel very different inside of me. In this moment I know I am constantly emerging, when I allow myself to and I’m ready to begin again!