I know I have choice and I know I have the capability to choose for mySelf. And I do, most of the time. And then there are the times when I forget. When I fall into the ‘old’ way of being, of ‘thinking’ I have no choice, that this is just the way things are. And I can be pretty good at talking myself into ‘believing’ that. And it’s just talk, that internal conversation that happens in my head’ that distracts me from living my life. Most of the times I catch mySelf and then there are other times I do get lost in it. And it is through reading the WGGG blog and noticing the agitation that arises in my body when I read something someone has written that reminds me of my internal state of being. And then I get to ‘choose’, do I pay attention or do I stay asleep.
Sometimes I can be stubborn and choose not to recognize what is being presented, and of course then I start to create lots of opportunities for me to choose differently. HA the I AM that I am does not let me go quietly anymore, the I AM that I am chooses to be awake and to engage in each moment and ups the ante in me to ‘choose’ differently.
It’s about free will. The freedom to choose differently and it is not difficult, really it isn’t, all I have to do is change my mind and say not this, or choose not to respond in a habituated way. Actually the only thing I need to do is take a breath. And not a breath to calm the feelings rumbling around inside me, a breath that claims whatever it is that is moving. I welcome that feeling because it is what keeps me alive. It says to me here is another layer of something that you now have the opportunity to choose differently on… am I up for it? Can I stand how my life will change and in that moment propel me to a different place?
What other people think of me is none of my business, BECAUSE, it’s never about me it’s always about them. I have been saying that a lot to people lately as a way of offering another choice. I also say the flip side is true and needs to be paid attention to, when I start to make a judgment about someone I have to acknowledge that it’s all about me, not them.
I have started my practicum for the CODE Model™ coaching certification and,for me, I feel the sessions are going well. I have come to realize that the waves move differently for different people and it’s all perfect for them and for me. I have begun to understand more how it is about me, in that, I have a choice to where to move the conversation when I choose to stay connected to mySelf and listen and act on the instructions. I am choosing to be seen. I am choosing to let that aspect of mySelf that knows what it knows to be fully visible, trusting I will remain present. Choosing to be present, fully present as much as I am able to. It is like magic when that happens. Time stands still, space is created evolution takes place, lives are changed and I am choosing to acknowledge that I am a part of that process. That because I choose to engage the world is different because one person’s life is different.
All of this is happening to me because I am choosing something different, I choose to TRUST the choices I make because there is genius in each choice. Genius in choosing to stay in the fog, genius in choosing not to be in the fog, choosing to engage or not to engage, choosing to speak, choosing to be seen. The choosing to be seen is a big one for me. For far too long I had chosen not to be seen, chosen to stay small inside of mySelf. That distinction is necessary because others were able to see the force that I AM. I chose not to see it, because at the time I did not know I had the power to choose that. And that is now changed. I see MySelf and I choose to CLAIM who I AM. I am choosing to let go of the fear of living a different life, one where I have no plan other than choosing to BE who I AM in one breathe every moment.