Well it has been a while. And lots has happened since my last post, has it really only been a little over a month? WOW, time is moving quickly and yet it seems to have taken a while. So back to the journey. The old journey, the journey of learning, absorbing, experimenting to be something/someone different is over, and the new journey of living it has begun. The content of it is I needed to stop. For the past 10 months I’ve been moving at the speed of light, growing, evolving, changing, going back to sleep, waking up again, it was exhilarating and it was exhausting. So I took a break.
I went to Provence and spent seven wonderful days with one woman whom I have come to know very well and four others I just met. And it was magical. I understood why my body reacted the way it did when I thought I could/should not go. Each day was perfect, it did not go by too fast or too slow. The weather was perfect too, big fluffy clouds and lots of sun light, always with a light breeze. We had amazing conversations, ate great food, and drank lots and lots of wine. And for a moment I let mySelf rest. I let mySelf absorb all that I had learned and experienced, I let mySelf just BE. And I realized that is all I have had to do all along. Inhale and exhale, pay attention to what is around me, listen to every sound, observe all that I can with all of me, not just with my eyes, nose and ears, and speak the truth of my experience in THAT moment.
I am filled with a sense of wonder. Everything excites me, and, I choose moment to moment. I have no more worry in me. I trust mySelf fully now. I know that whatever my intention is, it will be. And I know I still have a lot to learn and experience, because, that is what life is about. I am not done I am just beginning, again. Everything is perfect.
My brother and his wife just had their second child, a new life begins and I begin a new life. No coincidence in that. And where will this new life take me? Far and wide and with a bang. I am no longer afraid to be who I am. I AM STAR, and I will allow mySelf to shine as bright as I need to in order to attract others. Like a moth to a flame, only this flame creates space for a new place to stand, on more solid ground.
I have a new CD entitled Perfect Life – Still Dying? You can find it at http://www.wel-systems.com/products/CD/TO-LJW-PL-SD.htm. It’s the conversation that frames the beginning of my journey, and there will be more. I know now I have lots to say and now I’m WILLING to say it. Everything is just a conversation, an opportunity to grow and evolve. For me there is no other way to live than this.