Wow, here I am, my belly is aching, that is the best way for me to describe it. I’ve been wanting to write all morning and have been putting it off, wanting to get my ‘work’ done. And my body is saying enough, you need to write. So I take a breath and here I am.
I’ve had a flash of insight. I had some wonderful conversations this past week-end. Me just being me, showing up, being present. Conversations that filled me up, further pushing my boundaries on who I can have these conversations with. And another wonderful conversation this morning with a kindred soul. And I heard myself saying many times, “It’s about the conversations”. Well it is and it isn’t. It’s about the experience of the conversations, it’s about the connections I can have with others, the connections I do have with others. That is what feeds me, it’s not about the conversations, it’s about the experiences the conversations bring to me. Ahhh my belly is relaxing, and I feel the energy pulsating through my fingers. Thank you Christine, you helped me to get this.
And for those who know me and my left ear problem, well on Saturday it unblocked. All by itself with no help or encouragement from me. I had let go of it, let go of the thought of having to do something to get it to clear. I had resigned myself to whenever it was ready to clear it would and it did. My body knew I had given up control of how it behaved, letting it be. If I think of this as a metaphor, have I let go of the control I thought I needed to have? Am I allowing my Self to just be? Yes I am. I am allowing my Self to notice when things are moving inside me, trying not to label what it is, like I’m feeling anxious or worried and instead say hmmmmm I’ve got some information that needs to move and allowing myself to stay in that moment and let it move… Green dot moment, woo hoo here comes my life.