Well here I am, just two weeks post Manifesting a Meaningful Life and four days post our G10 gathering. Two very intense activities which has, and is, taking my body at least a week to process. I now know who I am, and that knowledge is very freeing, because now my choices/decisions are easy. I take a breathe, pay attention to my body and choose. When I make a choice that is not in alignment with who I AM my body lets me know, pronto. And then I have another choice to make, change my mind or stay with the choice that causes me agitation. It sounds like a no brainer, yet for years that is exactly what I did. Made choices that didn’t ‘sit’ well within me and brushed aside the feelings, pushed the agitation further into my body. It is no wonder that I did not make myself sick.
Well that’s not true either, I was sick. It would be labeled as mild depression, feeling tired and listless, eating more, drinking more, shopping more. Anything to fill the hole I was creating. There must have been an inner cry for help because all of a sudden different people started to come into my life. Individuals who have a different perspective on life, and this time instead of pushing it aside I let my curiosity propel me to a new place. That new place is now where I stand. Living a very different life. A life where everyday I wake up I say to mySelf, how does the godforce that I am choose to live today? And I let my day unfold, moment by moment.
After numerous conversations I have come to realize that all I have to do is hold my intention and my life is created right before my eyes. It’s not about the doing, the forcing the round peg in the square hole it’s about Being. The question I have often asked mySelf is how can someone just BE? I finally get it, ti’s about taking a breath in and then exhaling. That’s it. It’s about paying attention to what comes up in that breath, is there alignment, meaning a peacefulness within mySelf or is there some sort of agitation? And my new way of Being allows me to understand that the agitation is just information and to trust that information. Trust MySelf.
The information might be something from my experiences that I have not recognized or processed yet, that will keep presenting until I acknowledge it. Or it might be mySelf, the Who that I am giving me guidance that I need to change my decision, go left instead of right, accept instead of decline.
Children do it magnificently, and we, as the responsible adults that we are ‘beat’ it out of them so that they no longer believe what their body is telling them. I’m hungry, no you’re not, how can you be you just ate? I’m thirsty, you just had something to drink so you can’t be. I don’t want to play with so and so… of course you do he/she wants to be friends. Sound familiar? It’s subtle and yet the impact is huge.
I’ve been paying attention. It’s amazing how many people follow the same routine, every day, barely changing a thing. It’s easy, it’s mindless, it’s coma. Well I’m AWAKE and I’m waking up anyone who is ready to really live the life of their choosing, not the one they feel they must endure. So when I SEE you and I ask how are you? I really do want the truth of what you are experiencing, not the habituated response, which means I need you to take a breath or two and then answer, and our lives will be different. That is how my life is different today. It’s a beautiful thing!