I feel compelled to not be silent today. I just finished listening to President Obama’s inauguration speech where waves passed through me, for what reason I do not know. And I know I must write. I must say what has been inside me for the past few days. To tell you how my first flight went.
Two significant things happened to me this week. The first, I turned what in the past would have been a moment full of drama into a moment to claim who I am. And all I had to do was be me and not get caught up in the stories that my intellect wanted to create. When I said no to the story and yes to mySelf, in that moment, my life changed, and is still changing in ways I still do not know.
The second significant moment came when I stood firm with who I AM and suggested a new way of doing things with an associate. A shift in how we worked in the past. Actually it was a shift I want to make in how I present my portion of a workshop, and again there was no drama. Instead, there was a recognition that helping people to find out who they really are does not have to be in a specif context but can happen at any time, if I allow mySELF to be true to who I am.
So, I have taken my first flight. I let go for a moment, and guess what, I did not come crashing down to the ground, I rose above the clouds and soared, and learned that I AM THE ONE. Just as you are the one. And it has nothing to do with planning or preparation, for me those are strategies I use to hold on, to keep my eyes closed. I can no longer not be who I AM, the agitation in my body, the war within myself rises to quickly and is intense, and when I choose not to be mySelf the consequences hurt. I had raised my sword in defence of mySelf when there was no need for a sword and I hurt, physically, both on the crucible and warrior sides of my body, and when I decided to lay the sword down and be mySelf the pain has started to diminish.
My body gives me the signals I need to help me pay attention to the habituation of the old ways, I can no longer even doze off because the eyes of mySELF are always open now.