I came across this blog, rise like the phoenix and sing your fire song, and it spoke to me on so many levels.
It has been two weeks today since I returned from an amazing gathering in Nova Scotia where I opened the doorway inside myself to a world that had been waiting; waiting for me to discover, I believe, from the day I was born.
It has been quite the journey to get here, requiring lessons in abandonment, loneliness, infertility, marriage, separation, divorce, owning my rage, and beliefs of being dangerous, discovering feelings, allowing vulnerability and compassion for myself, owning, and finally, revelling in my intensity…just to name a few. As I look back I can see the stepping stones, each one laid out in front of me just waiting for me to take the step or to make the leap. Each time I chose to leap my world changed; each time I chose to not leap the stone re-emerged at another time. We are always moving towards our greatest SELF, even if it doesn’t always feel that way.
“The world you seek is already inside of you.” I have heard this statement many, many times, I now KNOW what it means.During my pause, I experienced a new world emerge from the core and depths of my being. It did not come with all the fan fare of past experiences, it was quiet, deep, soft and elegant. And, it takes the journey of letting go of all that we know from an external reference point to discover it sits inside, waiting for us to open the door.
It felt like I was a phoenix rising from the ashes.
The blog highlighted above by C. Ara Campbell, speaks to what I experienced. Each line carries the vibration of what moved through my body as I closed my eyes to an old world, and opened my eyes to a new world. We are taught not to burn our bridges, and yet the line, “The bridges she burns and watches fall in the distance are those which lead back towards that which holds her spirit no longer.” was required to find this new place. I stand in a land of limitless possibility waiting for me to BE the magic required for creation.
Until the next time…