Beginning AgainFeb 1st, 2017 | By LJWeiss | Category: Insights
With each breath I am given an invitation to begin again, if, I am willing to listen to the call from deep within. Sometimes it presents as an insignificant thought, one that I dismiss as something fleeting or unimportant.
Beginning again does not mean throwing out everything that was before. It’s about choosing to make a different choice in this moment, moving mySELF towards a different present moment.
We forget all that exists is THIS moment.
I have to remember, the choices I make in THIS moment are the choices that changes and shapes my future.
Sometimes choosing to care for mySELF is THE hardest thing to do. The conflict which arises inside can be excruciating, to want what seems like two polar opposite things at the same time. To engage in a conversation inside, about how choosing mySELF could also mean denying MYSELF sometimes seems like I am living two lives. Knowing which choice to make seems like a no win situation, and sitting in this choice point is beyond uncomfortable.
At tha same time I know and trust that if I created this experience for mySELF there is ‘something’ for me to discover. A new way of being that I have no words for.
Extracting myself from the boundaries of our cultural conditioning and deeply held beliefs is not an easy path. Carving out a new place to stand inside my SELF can be daunting at the best of times.
Choosing to continue on, to push at the edges of my boundaries, because I know there is so much more, even if I just can’t see it in this moment can leave me feeling lost and wanting to hold on to what I know.
Sometimes making choices that remove me from my uncomfortableness, looking for ways to distract myself from mySELF, to stop the process of inquiry, and bypass the tough conversation and reveal my truth as complex as it may seem is not easy.
The complexity of truth lies in the judgement we hold of ourSELF based on how we think others will judge us.
Until the next time!